the BITCH , the LIFE DESTROYER -.-

AFTER i got over the bad day , -.-
i thought about how the whore might be like , so these are a few of maybe she'd turn out to be .

- CHEAAAAP . (duh !)
- sluttyyy and act all baby-ish and all MANJA __-___ <- this is me rolling dead . - okay maybe a little witty .
- okay this is for suuure ; young , fabulous and tak pakai tudung .
- sexyy ? maybe .
- RUDE and ruthless . BITCHYY
- GOLD DIGGERR .


haihh .wht fun life i have . and i was thinking why, oh why wld he do that ?
hes got a beautiful wife , and 6 most amazing kids he'll ever get (hehe perasan .)
maybe it's his work . or his staffs ? ive seen em THEY ARE UBERLY LAZY . worst thn me if i might add :D and to do the math , this was going on for 6 FUCKEN LOOOONG years . yeahh, i nearly jumped off th FUCKEN roof .pardon my french . and it was just last year since i knew , and to be accurate , he started when i was in 2nd grade ;O when MA was pregnant with aiman :'(

oh i wish i cld tell him how much he hurt me . how much i needed to ask him whyy , it's so stupid why im so ticked off because im a grown teenager and i knw THIS is wht men do . but he's my dad . and i cnt kill him .

and i keep telling it's okay . i knw , THERE ARE WORSE problems out there handled by weaker people . everybody has problems , everybody has pain . but we dnt have to be all that damned about it . it's like that line in that song again , ' im still here , but it hasnt been easy . im suuure that you had your reasons , im scared of all these emotions . for years ive been holding it down , for years ive been holding it down . '

i'll get through it , it gets better . it always does . :'S